HARE KRSNA prabhu ! I got some news, that i need to cure the soul wounded from birth until the time spent under the guru hoaxers, when i was a full-time devotee in fiskcon, after SRILA PRABHUPADA left this world. The wound is like that of DHRUVA MAHARAJ, therefore i got some ksatriya tendency sometime, like the anger of SRI HANUMAN when HE burned the golden kingdom of Ravana with HIS huge tail.
Anyway i do not make any plan but SRI KRSNA want me to be engaged in HIS service constantly because i got a particular karma therefore i'm trying my best to be engaged by reading and chanting as much as i can during the day without running too much to not fell victim of raga dvesau, which is the worst enemy in krsna consciousness because it slow down the plant of bhakti to grow by taking complete shelter in the lotus feet of SRI SRI GURU GAURANGA. After all , its a question of practice, which make everything perfect by the intensity of the practiser steady in the transcendental guno-sanga-sya, on the personal form of SRI KRSNA. I need ...to focus all the energies in krsna smarana, otherwise i will be not able to become a successful sadhana siddhi when i leave this world if the material business is not finished.
I believe i will get there if i follow the protector of my heart which want me to read all the 18 chapters of the gita daily by chanting as much as i can to improve the quality of sravana and get out once for all from the bodily conception of life without making a show. But just mind the own business in the way back to SRILA PRABHUPADA, as you know, this is what is remaining with the entrance of the old age.
I'm still ok by krsna mercy i do astanga yoga daily i learned in hrikesh when i was living in india. It is good to do it to prevent to become invalid at the end of the journey in bhumiloka. Hatha yoga is helping also in controlling the senses beyond the body upadhi designation.
SRILA RUPA GOSVAMI advice to do it in the UPADESAMRITA for kanistha adhikari devotees like me. The most important thing is that everything will turn in the right status with complete detachment from the matter... i already feel that everything is going in that direction after the diksa mercy from our beloved acharya with the blessing of the spirit net web site.
SRI SRI GURU GAURANGA ARE ours leaders and THEY make the individual karma of the human being to go all the time in the direction of salvation. Compared to the material guno-sanga-sya of all living entities including the animal kingdom,this guno-sanga-sya is a science. The demigods can read any face through this science. SRILA PRABHUPADA also could see that, because HE was beyond the worldly association with the gunas of this world. Therefore, this sublime practice on the transcendental form of SRI KRSNA is our only treasure and well wisher as SRILA PRABHUPADA told to the kali yuga society through HIS not ordinary and eternal books, to get out from the disease of this material polluted guno-sanga-sya. Otherwise people remain helpless.
This is a question of life or death. We got the way out. That's sarvo panishado gavo dogdha gopala nandanah partho vatsah sudhir bhokta dugdham gita amrtam mahat (gita mahatmya verse 6) and param vijayate sri krsna sankirtanam. So foolish am i to not drink all this nectar, and avoid to be forked by the trident of maya ?
jai prabhu thank you for your sat sanga i tell you all this things because i considered you a good friend therefore you can understand me i got all the time defeated by maya until now, but this is time to change. I got the diksa now, and all the spiritual weapons to defeat maya . I think SHE will be glad also to see me to get serious because SHE is our guru and the mother of this planet, and i'm learning by HER how to serve krsna better, because as you know SHE IS a very good servant.
agtys ys a.c seva das haribol
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