"My life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to
find out, you will not find even a trace of piousactivities -- only sinful
activities."
And parereudvega, diyachi ye koto,diyachi jivere klesa:
"I am always inclined to give trouble to other living entities.
That is my business. I want to see that others are suffering, and then I enjoy."
Nija sukha lagi', pape nahidori:
"For my personal sense gratification, I accept any kind of sinful activity."
Daya-hina svartha-paro:
"I am not at all merciful, and I see only to my personal interest."
Para-sukhe duhkhi, sada mithya-bhasi:
"As such, when others are suffering I become very happy, and I am always speaking lies. Even for ordinary things I am accustomed to speaking lies.
Para-duhkha sukha-karo:
"And if someone is suffering, that is very pleasant to me."
Asesa kamana, hrdi majhe mora:
"I have got lots of desires within my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride."
Mada-matta sada visaye mohita:
"I am captivated by subject matters of sense gratification, and I am
almost crazy."
Himsa-garva vibhusana:
"My ornaments are enviousness and false pride."
Nidralasya hata,sukarye virata:
"I am conquered by sleep and laziness, and I am always
averse to pious activities.
Akarye udyogi ami:
"And I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities."
Pratistha lagiya sathya-acarana:
"I always cheat others for my prestige."
Lobha-hata sada kami:
"I am conquered by greediness and always lusty."
E heno durjana saj-jana-varjit a:
"I am so fallen, and I have no association with devotees."
Aparadhi nirantara:
"I am an offender always.
Subha-karya-sun ya:
"In my life there is not a bit of auspicious activity";
sadanartha manah:
"and my mind is always attracted by something mischievous."
Nana duhkhe jara jara:
"Therefore, at the fag end of my life I am almost invalid
by all such sufferings."
Bardhakye ekhona upaya-vihina:
"Now in my old age I have no alternative";
ta'te dina akincana:
"therefore by force I have now become very humble and meek."
Bhakativinoda prabhura carane, kore duhkha nivedana:
"Thus Bhaktivinoda Thakura is offering his sad statement
of his life's activities at the lotus feet of the Supreme Lord.
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