So think carefuly on this; are you chanting the pure Names? Have you become deathless and seen Krishna, have you all mystic powers in full, and remembrance of past lives and insite into future events accurately ? No ?? Then you are a cheat and have been cheated also !
Then you have been found unworthy. You have not done enough, or any, pure devotional service !
Think on that, your Beloveds have rejected you, as you are insincere and impure, unworthy.
You have chanted shamefacedly for years and not once uttered Suddha Nama, the Pure Name. What kind of yogi are you? You are not a devotee, just a want-to-be, a neophyte. But you have given it your all for your whole lifetime!
You have been placed on the doorstep outside the kirtana hall and not allowed in to Mahaprabhu's kirtana, you are not pure or worthy.
Krishna and Balarama find you a scary demon, they have sent you here far away, where they don't have to see your envy-smeared shrunken face. You have been kicked out of your Home and cast among the deathly demons.
Now you wish to repent, and you are on the doorstep of forgiveness, but They are holding you back, as you still harbour so many gross impurities and offenses.
But you do not realize what it is you are doing wrong ! You wish you knew, you wish you knew ! Hari, forgive me and please bless me, that I may be deemed fit to serve your pure devotee Srila Prabhupada ! Please give me the ability to serve, please take my life and my every breath and use me in Your service, service of Your pure devotees ! Please protect me, please forgive me. I want to be engaged in pure devotional service for even just once in a whole lifetime.
Now. Cry.
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Faith comes from experience and hard work ! Does that means then, where men work hard, and rightly, God is there? Hmmm. Yes, of course He is. Right action means devotional service in accordance with the wishes and instructions of Srila Prabhupada. That is enthusiasm for devotional service, therefore there will be happiness and ecstasy, and, of course, loving affection. Nice ! The same work, hard, no devotion, no faith, means dead works, karmic works. No ecstasy allowed there, so sorry!
Better get with devotional service, then love, faith, and enthusiasm will be there.
Cry in Ecstasy...are these the words of Srila Gour Govinda Swami?...when i read,i could hear/picture him saying in this way....
after taking birth in "The UK open prison" can't really argue with the above!...but if these truths aren't spoken or heard...How else can we stop in our tracks...turn...and take steps towards the Kirtan hall...thank God for the true Vaishnavas....speakers of truth...thankyou for posting
Somehow by his mercy he has spoken through the muddy channel of my tiny brain in a small way. Sometimes, when i dare to say what i feel, often it is at those times i write best. Thanks, Madan Prabhuji. I think maybe that is the nicest comment I ever got ! Surely reading Maharajah's books has been an influence that I hadn't exactly noticed before.